It has been awhile since I have been on my blog. So I find myself sitting behind my pencil, and paper thinking…..what do people need, or want to read. I so often just write for therapy, or self expression. So this may end up being ALOT of Ramblings of Heather LOL

The last few months my mind has felt like a tornado and hurricane colliding. I am sure many can relate. Life can be so hard sometimes! I view life as a journey, and I feel like our family is in a rugged mountain terrain season…..trying to safely make our way through. We carefully plan, and take each step. I pay close attention to each tiny detail, as any major mistake can be very costly to our family. Where do you feel like you are in life’s journey?

Being a caregiver 4.5 years 24/7 can feel like a pressure cooker……no matter how willing, or much love is involved. My top finally blew…..it was ugly! I had to stop and take a real hard look at myself in the mirror. I had to wake up and realize I had to take care of me again. I am still working on finding balance in my mind, and with my body. I am now trying though! Can anyone relate to giving it all to everyone else, and completely losing yourself?

I have really been looking at mental health and its importance. It is not talked about enough. I feel like many of us grew up in the PUT YOUR BIG GIRL PANTIES ON generation. You just suck it up, and keep on going. I have found there are life events that just does not work for. Those times you could care less you have panties, little lone putting any on…..can I get an AMEN! Tragic events that rock you to your core, and wreck your whole world. The times that make your chest hurt so bad you can not breath. Please feel oh so blessed if you have no clue what I am talking about. +

I say all of that to say after 4.5 years I needed help. I saw my doctor and started Wellbutrin. I have been on it for about 1.5 months, and I already feel so much better. I share this because it is something I would have hidden in the past. I would have felt weak, even embarrassed that I could not get it all together all on my own. There is no shame in getting help. It is courageous. I take a blood pressure pill, so why the stigma….I thank God for giving men and women knowledge to understand how our brain works, and how tragedy and life events effect its chemicals.

I am blessed with a tiny group of friend/sisters. If you have one you are blessed…..love, and lean on them, and return the favor. I have no clue what I would do without mine. God is so good!!!! Seek help if you need it!!!! It takes strength to ask!!!! YOU GOT THIS, CAUSE GOD HAS YOU!!!!!!!